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I never scared of trying.

Failure didn't scared me.

But failing all over again and didn't made any progress is what i'm scared of.

Everyone puts high hopes in me.

I realize everyone wants the best for me.

I'm not scared of being a fool, i'm just scared of being a dissapointment.

Total embarrassment. 

I just never want to make my family sad. 

I never show them how stressful am I. 

I never tell anybody about my own fear.

I never really show how I feel.

I never trust anyone even my best friends neither family.

I feel so lonely 

I can't share all my pain to anyone except the blank pages.

Only God who knows my worst and my best.